I was doing my bible study and time with God the other day and this is what i came up with.

"And my God will meet all your needs according to his glorious riches in Christ Jesus."
Philippians 4:19

This was a very interesting verse for me because like i've said in other posts i am interested in missions very much. There is a Dicipleship Training School put on by Youth With A Mission and i have been very interested in going to it. So let me tell you about it:


Discipleship Training School: Surrender Never Felt So Good
The DTS is an introductory heart-change school designed to give you a solid foundation of personal discipleship. Whether you're interested in career missions or just want to take some time to focus on your personal walk with the Lord, the DTS is for you.


the next one that i could possibly go to would be January 6th, 2008

the cost is $2890 for the lecture phase and $2700-$3200 for the Field assignment

I think it would be a great experience for me especially in missions since thats what i'm feeling called to do. The school spends like 3 months doing the lecture phase and the book work part of the schooling then they go out for a two month outreach project. thats when we will be doing mission work. That would be so cool.

The only thing is i'm not sure i could do it. Like i think i could but i would be really scared. I'm still thinking about it but i need to decided soon and if i'm going apply and see if i get accepted so then i can start getting some fundraising going ya know.

I also must mention that Veronica is supposed to be home from her mission trip now so i should get to talk to her soon so i'm excited about that.

God and Stuff

Jerimiah 29:11
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."

This is my favorite verse from the whole bible. I think about it all the time and it gives me inspiration. I wanted to share it with you to inspire you too. Just think about it God has plans for us so we can know that we have a future that we are gunna be ok. thats great to know.

I went to camp with my church a few weeks ago. We went to camp Caswell at the North Carolina coast. It was a great time and I really got a lot out of it. Like I figured out that God wants me to go into missions. Which has been a big thing for me cause i have been thinking about and dealing with this for a long time. I still am struggling with it too a point like questioning whether i will be able to do what is required to be a missionary and stuff like that.

Another problem i'm having is not wanting to go to church. Like i used to love church but i think it used to be for the people not for God. Now all the people at my church have changed and its just not the same. Its not as welcoming and as loving as it used to be. I think it has something to do with my mental illness but i'm not positive. So i don't go to church i don't read my bible or pray most of the time, sometimes i do but not a lot, but i still come back all the time to being pulled to the mission field. Is that bad....i still believe in God and stuff. I have definitly done my share of questioning him though but overall i believe in him.

Is this bad? I know i need to do better. Maybe i can set up a schedule for doing a devotion every day then i can get back on track with doing them and start spending time with God because i do miss God. He's my friend my best bud and i haven't been communicating with him for a while now. This is definitly what i'm gunna do. alright i'm gunna go work on that for a while. see ya!